who i am inside

2010-10-09T03:32:00.000-07:00

I'm meaningless...:(
useless??

sorry for everything...
maaf kalau aku belum sempurna..

2010-05-30T00:09:00.000-07:00

just viewing people life....

not everything sweet until the end..

awal mmg manis macam gula..
dah lama??
manis lagi ka??

knapa bila awal jalan berpimpinan..
dah lama jalan berenggang
dulu cakap suma indah tpi skang..
ckap pon nak x nak..
lumrah hidup...

tpi sweetkan kalu tgok couple yg dah tua...
yang still care each other..
still the same since they married till they going old...

2010-04-29T10:29:00.001-07:00

sabar bnyak bnyak....
kuat kuat..

BIG THANKS

2010-04-18T06:27:00.000-07:00

thanks ma sbb bgi ana lihat dunia..
thanks abah sbb take a good cares of me..
thanks friends for the wishes..
thanks fik for the whole day..
thanks ayel for the pizza..
best day ever..

2010-04-15T10:30:00.000-07:00

no more in future...
i hate that situation....
please..
it was killing my mood..
don't spoil it..
anything can convince me that it
won't happen again???

2010-03-30T04:14:00.000-07:00

over n over again...
hmmm...
hate this part of situation...
HATE!!

hanya mereka punya perasaan..
mungkin aku tidak kan..
it is totally wrong because i do have my feel as a normal person..
aku pun punya perasaan...
and kami suma punya hati prasaan...
huh even i'm in Kuantan pon still asik pk bnda nih...
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my work is slow slow like a snail...
idea oh idea...
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should i put my trust on you??
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seems like everything goes wrong..
life goes wrong..

2010-03-29T08:38:00.000-07:00

there is something wrong inside..
inside my mind...
inside my heart...
all in deep inside...

2010-03-26T05:56:00.000-07:00

just ignore n ignore..
just let it be in the way it should be..
sorrow n sorrow...
over and over again..

2010-03-16T22:50:00.001-07:00

dugaan dan cabaran bila berpuasa..
yaAllah sabarkan hatiku.kuatkan aku YaAllah..
aku lemah YaAllah..
sabarkan aku...

2010-03-15T10:56:00.000-07:00

she is everything4 u
she is always right..
and we are wrong..

but somehow u have to think widely..
it can't be like that..
u deserve to advice..
but why u blind your eyes??

2010-03-15T10:28:00.000-07:00

when someone is just don't want me to exist in this part of life...
when i'm nothing...
when i'm just kinda bored..
when i'm not such a good as other..
just ignore me..

what i'm trying to type huh??

just an imagination in my brain...

2010-03-14T01:52:00.000-08:00

bila keja x sep mulala nak moody...hate this part of myself..

2010-03-13T09:01:00.000-08:00

yesterday was a lonely day and it was
kinda sorrow when much thing i had think over..
but then a big thanks for u..who changed it
at least I wasn't lonely for a whole day...

2010-03-10T11:33:00.000-08:00

running out of MONEY!!!
X sampai tgh bulan ag dah tggal brapa...blom ag msok duit trip...
after paid for MUET fees,graduate fees,duit umah lagi..
huh dah x da wit...dugaan..

2010-03-10T11:00:00.000-08:00

I think that somehow
we learn who we really are
and then live with that decision....

In a moment of decision..
the best thing i can do is the right thing.
The worst thing i can do is nothing

if there is always the right thing..InsyaAllah..

Concision in style, precision in thought, decision in life.

*some words that make me think...deeply think..wisely think..
make me keep on thinking and hope for no regret of
MAKING A DECISION...

2010-02-19T03:55:00.000-08:00

don't simply think I'm pretty good because i'm not that really good..
I'm just d ordinary who need to learn to make myself better than today...

2010-02-17T23:25:00.000-08:00

I'm just d ordinary...
made lot of mistakes...
much weak in myself..
I'm not good enough..
I'm trying to improve myself...
INSYAALLAH

2010-02-17T20:18:00.000-08:00

calm is all what i want...

2010-02-03T08:02:00.000-08:00

everybody had ever did mistakes...human will never ever run from doing mistakes...mustahil sorang tu x pnah wat ksilapan..kan kan kan ...even me pon dah bnyak wat silap spanjang hampir 21 tahun hidup kan..so I'M TRULY SORRY 4 EVERYTHING i did...if i ever hurt you..

2010-01-30T07:29:00.000-08:00

confusing..thinking and thinking then my mind is like goes wrong....

2010-01-27T21:09:00.000-08:00

I just really want to know...but how???

What is the exactly way??

PATUT ka nak tau skarang??

I'm just in curious..

will be continue

2010-01-26T03:50:00.000-08:00

i want it or not.. i have to..have to be brave...kena jugak no matter what...self confident...somehow i have to put extra confident on me...bak kata jufri kakjat n kakton bleh x kan aku x boleh...haihh..Yeah aku pon pikir cam tu...org len ok ja knapa aku susah sangat??

2010-01-23T10:30:00.000-08:00

once I hurt can I'll be fine later on??

2010-01-23T10:24:00.000-08:00

i wrote on a piece of paper..that i wanna be success someday,then soaked a paper with my words into a glass of water and drink it with full of hope that I'll be success someday...how easy if that is just simply the way huhu...

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but i realize that, my life isn't that easy...

2009-08-28T00:04:00.000-07:00

..i'm not good enough..tpi as mama said tu rezeki aku..after dah bnyak strugle..mmg ak syukur sgt..Alhamdulillah...mama told me that i've to work extra harder to get more more and more better in this sem..dan bagi aku ni jugak challenge bg ak untuk trus work hard..but lagi banyak ak blajar lagi banyak aku tak tahu..bnyak agi yang ak kna blajar..gain much more sbb aku bnyak lagi kurang pgetahuan in many things..thanks a lot to maa abah kengkawan kat sini dgar ja rungutan ak slalu..kalu x da diorang i'm just nothing..tpi tu suma cita sem lpas sem nih lagi bnyak benda yang awal2 lagi dah buat aku risau..just 1 projek but then a lot of works la..da la weak lagi lam otocad tuh..kalu cam dulu suma manual ja tpi kali neh..Ya Allah Risau sgt..it seems like it's gonna be harder than b4..apa pon kna gak explore sampai boleh InsyaAllah...

2009-07-26T19:46:00.000-07:00

It’s been to long I have not manage my blog…. X tau lah knapa…lama jugalah kot…dah 2 bulan I guess..hmm I’m not really good in writing no much idea and It will be just a story that not interesting as well..Since cuti sem …then dah abes cuti sem still x update blog…boleh dikategorikan malas lah jgak kan nak update..heeehe haihh whatever..

Actually bukan abes cuti sem agi pon but then have to sacrifice my holiday to get myself busy in my new sem project..apa pon kna lah back to Ktn after i stayed at home 4 a month. Before back to Ktn singgah kl sat just wanna attend to Datum and had a visit to Archidex Exibition..after 3 days there baru balik kuantan.

Slalu busy ngan subject design but this time bukan design tapi subject warisan senibina…tpi nak kata busy x da lah busy sgt…..

Sampai ja kolej Puan dah bagi group...This time my group site will be at Mahkamah Ktn huhuhu seems like lpas ni ulang alik ke mhkamah la..amik data snap pictures..raft sketch façade bhgin dpn skit… tu lah yg aku wat stakat neh..

pas nih nak kna cri info plak wat report.hmm lpas tu lagi lah kna wat model..huh..X pa lumrah kalu x ada model x sah..dah dekat sebulan dah kot kat ktn..

this week sunyi sket lah sara balik then liq then mza…at last aku ja x balik lg…tpi apa pon ak balik gak sp nanti cma skang nak cari info utk report sket dulu then baru nak balik sp…dalam sunyi nih tikan n eifa ada so x da lah sunyi sgt..3 hari ni asyik pegi library ja..huhu thanks to tikan teman g library..

thanks tikan

this is my 1^st time kot p public lib. kat ktn neh..sama lah ngan tikan…she has not been there b4…lpas g jumpa puan.. balik then about 2.30 pm ktaorang pegi lah jln-jln cari library ktn…rmai ckap dkat pej.pos ktn tpi cari pej pos ntah knapa x jumpa..dah la tgh2 panas..cari punya cari jumpa pon….alahai comelnya library tu diapit bgunan pej.polis yg tggi..sampai ja trus cari info…

1^st day len yg dicari len yang dapat…tu lah awl2 x nak tnya org lib tuh…rupanya ad satu ag bilik rujukan tpi dah x sempat r dah dkat nak balik… macam nak pinjam ja buku tp kna lah jdi ahli dlu..x pasal2 dah jdi ahli lib ktn haha kat sp x plak jd ahli..so esoklah baru pnjam dah kna isi borang sgala jdi esok dtg la balik…continue on searching the info….

sempat ag tikan posing time ak busy cari buku hee

bila plak snap pic neh tikan? candid la konon

2^nd day kat lib…this time ak sorang ja tikan ad klas..g pon dah tau kat mna library jd senanglah kali nih…sampai sampai trus cari..macam biasa tawaf pnya tawaf jumpa lah tpi like 1^st day tu lah I found more books about archi ja…at the back of the reference room tuh ada bilik…Ingatkan x bley masuk …lah kalu tau awl2 tdi dah masuk..lam tu suma psal Pahang ada..tpi kna pndai cari arr ad mcm-mcm jenis tpi msa x bnyak.. smpat la amik pic lama mhkamah time baru dibina n pic ktn dedulu sket…nampaknya esok g la lagi library..After went out from lib..It was raining..dah lah x da pyung sorang plak..tpi lpas tu x lbat dah ..

3^rd day neh I woke up early ingat lpas basuh bju nak pi lib tpi x jadi lmbat la sket aku kuar..tgu bs dah stengah jam..tp ari neh jumpa lah sket info psal surrounding building tpi mhkamah still x jumpa.. ada lgi info tpi elok ja aku nak salin sket info ni guard tu dtg “kita nak tutup dah library neh” lbey kurang cam tu la ayt dia huhu dengan keseorangan sob..sob..aku simpan barang then balik la…nseb baek ari ni x ujan J tpi pnat ja bwa payung....hmm then walked to Mega..ada org nak blanja icecream so jln p Mega tggu dia kat sana. Plan lpas p mega jalan lgi pi terminal plak bli tcket..mesti ar nak balik pnya pasal jauh jugak lah berjalan ari neh..tpi yg sedehnya x da orang plak kat kaunter..i’ve been waiting kat situ dekat 40 minutes kot so esok lah cari tket balik since dah dkat kul 9 mlm dah kang x da bas balik umah malam neh.

4^th Ari neh ingat dah x mau g library dah tapi bosan kalu dok umah..g pon kalu g ley arr amik info yg kemarin x sempat tuh… I heard my phone rang so I woke up..Mama called then realized there was 6 missed call huh..sara just called me mmg x sedar ar time tuh but then she msg nak dtg umah.. yey x da lah sunyi boleh lunch ngan sara. After we had a lunch then we went to library..wah sara dah ada keta….huhu..ari neh x yah ar wait for a bus..dah sampai library then apa lgi trus p reference room tuh n today dapat info sket n more old pic of kuantan..so spanjang mggu neh 4 hari la aku di library mlm esok dah nak balik..at last dapt jgak ak bli tcket b4 went 2 library td.

budaya membaca mmg di library hee..

23julai2009 jam0016

at last tag jugak

2009-05-09T22:48:00.000-07:00

Peraturan nak jawab tag ni ialah:

1. Copy badge "2008 Cute's 3logger Award" di atas untuk diletakkan di blog anda

2. Link/ceritakan kembali siapa yang memberikan award ini kepada anda

JAT hassan
CIK paliq
FIKpiki

3. Setiap blogger mesti menyatakan 10 fakta/hobi diri sendiri sebelum memilih penerima award seterusnya (anda di-tag)

nama ak joo (not my real name):p
aku yang pendiam..diam ka???cakap bnyak gak sbenaqnya..
sometime a little bit sensitive..
aku ska laksa...as my mum said aku neh hantu...hantu laksa
aku blurr jgak
aku nih agak membosankan gak..
ska men badminton...tpi lam dah x men
ak slalu shakin'..as my fren said i'm jo parkinson
less cnfident itu ak...bla bley b'ubah???? entahlah someday insyaAllah
mcm2 kurang dalam aku..
yang kurang itu aku..

4. Anda perlu memilih 6 penerima award seterusnya dan menyatakan nama mereka di blog anda

Faliq Senah
Fik Awang
JAT hassan
Tikan comey
ntah sapa
sapa ntah

5. Jangan lupa untuk melawat blog mereka dan meninggalkan komen yang menyatakan "anda telah di tag - sila layari blog saya untuk mendapatkan award anda". Terima kasih!

2009-05-09T22:31:00.000-07:00

u're my everything...love u ma..
actually it is not just today...
everyday is a day just for u. maa...
Miss you MAMA

happy MAMA'S DAY

2009-05-08T02:23:00.000-07:00

i miss my boys...hee
org kedah kata anak menakan..
ada cakap anak buah..
ada sebut anak sedara..
apa pon miss them so much

sometime i am

2009-04-02T05:52:00.000-07:00

sometime i wish to do my best
but i could not
sometime there is a way
but i can't see it
sometime things had teach me
but i was not learn it
sometime the chances had come
but i did not grab it
sometime i'm in the right way
but then i still lost
sometime i want to try
but then i failed
sometime i want to learn
but then i don't know the way
sometime i thought it was good enough
but it was the worse
sometime when i don't satisfied
but then it will be goood
sometime i want to speak out
but then i just i just keep my mouth shut
sometime i want everything go well
but it won't happen
sometime i want to give up
but then that not the point
sometime i just want to give up
but then i'm thinking my parents then it makes me cheer up ..
sometime i feel down
but then i forget it..
sometime i want to run
but then i still walk..

apa saja lah..

2009-02-14T13:28:00.000-08:00

menghalusi imaginasi
impian yang setinggi langit

pic by: joo's touch

the moment i miss

2009-02-14T06:44:00.000-08:00

hmm tadi terlihat sijil2 time skolah menengah dlu....miss that moment la...tpi apa yang aku paling rindu is my art class...Walaupon seni tu membuat ak busy n tumpu lbeh kat seni smpai pnah x tido..but then i still in love with it...rindu nak pegang berus....mengalerrrr...menconteng lepas prasaan....huhu..aku start blajar seni neh time form 4 time tu mmg takut gak..ya lah x pnah blajar seni before x tau ap2 pon..ngan cikgunya yg garang..tapi lama2 ok..cikgu pon kinda baek ngan aku..huhu remind me to what she said"kalu x dapat a1 jgan jumpa saya" hehe..PN JARIAH....lama x jumpa dy...hw is she now??satu ag aku rindu clas musik aku ngan miss Eng..miss Eng neh ajar ak musik since aku form 1 sampai la form 3..men rekorder segala..yg best rekoder besaq tuh dah lupa nma dy..then dy cikgu koir gak..what she always told us was to be decipline..she will talk bout it over n over again...ni semuah sbb ad yg dtg lmbat..x dtg n all yg wat prangai..apa agi bebel la dy..ap pon she was right..dah nama lagi cikgu msti kna tegur later bebel apa yang patot..dy penah nak msokkan 3 jari dy lam mulut aku suruh nganga luas2 nyanyi..haha..lgi satu miss Lee yoke Ling...dy ajar aku maen piano..rindu dy arrr...comey sgt teacher aku tu...dah ada anak ka blom x tau lah...heee kalu ad dah ..mesti comey..heheheeee...cikgu add math rindu gak...''PAHAM KA??''always ask that..x paham wat cam paham...dy agak garang tpi sweet la dy actually..pn. Yang,Pn Romlah,ishh ramai sbenaqnya if i want to type..heee of coz tringin gak nak meet them someday..

welcome back

2009-02-13T06:59:00.000-08:00

dah mula dah.....cam biasa i'll be busy balik ngan suma benda benda neh...drawing..drawing..n drawing...detailing..detailing...n detailing...x tdo??..jgn kata lah tu dah biasa..

days to REMEMBER

2009-02-08T05:54:00.001-08:00

Happy Birthday ABAH!!! -5 Feb 1952-
Happy Birthday MAMA!! - 8 Feb 1955-

i love u mama..love u abah..syg sgt...
thanks 4 everything..i'm nothing without mama n abah..
doa Ana semoga abah mama pnjang umur dimurahkan rezeki...AMINNN
mama abah....ana akan try my best...apa pon doa mama abah yg penting..
InsyaAllah ana akan ingat suma apa yg mama pesan tadi ma...
I'm very thankful to have u ma and abah..

All deep inside...

2009-02-07T10:33:00.000-08:00

it just happen without my expectation..i heard bout it b4 but then just err "is that true??" it was about a decision..i kept it hanging for a moment..no need to rush because there is a way for me to think ..THINK DEEPLY AND WISELY...without regret InsyaAllah..aku pon slalu doa gak hope that i'll make a right decision..* ya lah b4 this aku mmg x penah pikir pasal bnda neh..ehh tipu lah kalu aku kata x pnah pikir pasal love neh tpi mksud aku aku x penah terpikir yang aku akn serius lam hal2 neh... Of coz lah suma org pon need love in life neh but for me..love my families, friends, 2 suma love jugak kan...tpi yg penting love Allah no.1..tu jgn lupa kalu lupa sesat nnti..TRUE LOVE??? aku rasa aku pnah type lam blog neh psal love neh..kalu rajin cari arr balik haha..ada yg aku kata aku tak penah pikir pasal couple segala..maybe bukan masa ag kot nak serius lam LOVE neh..haha poyo kan aku ..tpi this is me ok..maybe neh suma sbb aku tak penah fallin' in love kot...stakat minat tu biasa lah..minat pon bkn ke mana pon..haaha prinsip idop arr knonnya..bukan x mau serius lam hal neh cuma not ready..ya lah dgn aku yg tunggang langgang ngan study ag..pikir tu ini..haha g pon aku pikir x da sapa kot yg yg nak falling falling in love with me wat msa neh...once ak nak try dulu..give him chance ya lah ksian plak dy tunggu .. but then it made me hurt..haha time tu bkn pikir pnjang sgt pon ag..tpi it tught me much..that was a lesson 4 me..start dr tu lah prinsip aku tu wujud haha bukan arr x mau couple suma tu tpi baru 20 beb..huhu..i had set my mind yg if there is a love comes 4 me just think it wisely..ad masa just be friend ..bestfriend 1st...biarlah berkawan dulu..kalu da jodoh tu x kemana.. btol x?? even ngan org yg ak mnat pon ak akan jdi bstfren dulu..*huhu minat bg aku x kemana ya lah mcm ak neh hidung x mancung pipi tembam ak yg tersorong sorong haha..wat la apa pon kalu dah ditetapkan since azali lgi t dia datang jugak..tp org kata dlm mnunggu n just jd bestfren tu mcm2 leh jdi. manusia cpt brubah tpi bgi aku kalu couple skali pon apa pon leh jadi jga kan..kunfayakun...mmg payah kalu ckap psal takdir sbb kta bukan tau destiny msing2 tu la sbb kita merancang tuhan tentukan.. so wat pa nak risau..cuma antara sggup tggu or tak tu ja....tpi ad org kta kna usaha kalu x bnda x mai bergolek..hmm cam na plak tuh??hmm PANDAI arr aku ckap sbb x kna batang idung aku pon..ya lah sapa la nak ska aku neh..cantik pon tak..huhu..HAA...mmg ak x expect.. skang bila dah kna batang idung baru tau kan..it's kinda hard..hard to make a decision..lg lg mcm ak yg mmg susah nak wat decision neh lam ap pon benda.. msti x cnfident..tpi ok lah ramai bg pndapat..bg aku dia mmg baik..i'm really appriciate it but bagi aku masa...thanks to all yang bnyak tolong dia kalu korang tak tolong msti ak tak tau suma neh..Thanks to 'Si dia' gak sbb let me knew all what u keep inside..hope suma tu ikhlas...that is the most important.....

some words from me...
-i am who i am-

apalah yg aku merepek ni...

2009-01-27T20:10:00.000-08:00

yesterday was a history....
tomorrow is a mystery...

kita neh tak tau apa akn jadi kelak kan...kan best kalu kita tau...tapi hakikatnya memang kita tak akan tau tu suma...nama lagi manusia slalu diuji....diuji dgn mcm2...tpi boleh kah kita sabar?? InsyaAllah..now, the most important is tunggu ja hari hari yang mendatang....harungi dengan sebaik mungkin... msa kemarin mungkin x kan berulang..hari esok mungkin lebih baik..slalu la ubah apa yg patut yg x patut ada lam diri..we can change..change to a more better life...just listen to all what people say.. maybe that is true because they are the observer...they observe in every ways we are...then judge by what they thought...maybe its hurt but we have to accept it in positive..kalu suma yang they judge tu x betul just ignore..that's the way..yeah we know who we are but then we're not always right..I'm not good enough..i need to to learn more to change...i don't want to be perfect but x salah kalu nak jadikan hidup ni lebih baik...

2009-01-17T05:47:00.000-08:00

"Don't walk in front of me, I may not follow..
Don't walk behind me, I may not lead..
Walk beside me, and just be my FRIEND."

2009-01-09T01:00:00.000-08:00

time is running to fast...it getting older and older as a human..as a girl..as a daughter..as a sister...as a student....but ermmmm what i want to type actually..blank sbenarnya kepala hotak neh but still want to type I feel like there is a thing i wanna type here but what is it???WHATZZZITTT..hehe..always like that lah....*lost an idea*haha...yeah lah skang ramai student tgh start a new semester right...so as student mcm2mcm la prasaan...it's going to be harder...and what i have to be?? i have to work all out for this sem InsyaAllah....now..ermm as in my older post no need to be mention too many time hehehe...(that i bukan muda lagi sudah 20 dong fullstop heehe) i realized that our life is not that easy....and so my life it isn't easy....am i right??kalau suma benda senang that mean no point lah we study kan...yeah because for me in every single thing i've to think deeply and wisely...to bright my future must give my best...but can i ??can i ?? what i know i'll try my best InsyaAllah......even mcm mana susah pon kena gak try....demi mak ayh i've to...i really want to make them happy...siapa yang tak mahu mak ayah happy right.... cuma boleh tak boleh..nak x nak tu saja..susah gak kalau i'm still tak confident..no no no put the word away..

Ya Allah selamatkanlah mereka...

2009-01-05T03:34:00.000-08:00

KENAPA kat dunia ni ada manusia yg SANGAT SANGAT KEJAM..inikah manusia yg kejam sebelum DAJAL TIBA???

I woke up in the morning and see how beautiful the cloud and the brightest of the sky kurniaan Allah yang Maha Esa...Maha PENCIPTA..maha suci ALLAH...Ermm that is my day and it is totally not da same like THEIR day..pagi mereka mengharapkan sinar menanti hari yang mendatang MAYBE there is tomorrow for them AND maybe there is no tomorrow....so kita kira bernasib baik kerana DUNIA KITA hari ini belum sampai ke tahap DUNIA MEREKA yg penuh dengan siksa DERITA menangisi kematian yang penuh tragik ditindas OLEH MANUSIA YG BERMUKAKAN SYAITAN..ITULAH ISRAEL..everyday the same thing i read in news paper..KEGANASAN ISRAEL memenuhi ruang akhbar...DUNIA MENENTANG kekejaman mereka but DO THEY CARE??? of course they don't...hari demi hari dan serangan demi serangan dekat gaza tuh....sama sama arr DOA kat mangsa mangsa kekejaman ni...imagine lah macam mana kalau salah sorang mayat ni keluarga kita....tpi dah tentu mereka nih saudara kita saudara islam kita...sedihkan...dunia sekarang dah macam macam...apalah salah kanak-kanak nih????tak sempat mereka nak tengok dunia..si ibu pula meratapi nasib anak mereka,keluarga....orang tua pon ramai yang mati...Yg paling menaikkan kemarahan dunia terutamanya orang Islam ialah masjid pon dibom..dibedil....sudah tu semua tempat kena bom..bayangkan lah how busy hospital kat sana...ribuan mayat,ribuan yang cedera...mcm mana nak selamatkan semua kalau hospital pon dibedil?? tak cukup lagi kah derita mereka sampai bekalan makanan disekat , bekalan ubat-ubatan, barangan keperluan asasi yang lain terutamanya minyak telah disekat kemasukannya oleh rejim zionis melalui pintu-pintu sempadan yang dikawal oleh mereka.Kalau petrol dah disekat apa lagi elektrik pon tersekat...bertambah derita la..nak wat pembedahan mcm mana kalau dah elektrik pon tak ada..i just imagine if i'm in their place...YA ALLAH memang derita..PERITNYA..

perasaan melanda....

2009-01-03T08:49:00.000-08:00

have you ever worry in your life????

I'm sure there is no one that never ever feel worry in their life....should be once,twice, many times...but for me worry is part of my life...DON'T WORRY BE HAPPY Haha people always said that but how can we happy while we are worry?? kalau happy pon sure will be worry jgak lepas tu kannn.....hmm actually I'm worrying about my result..that is the right what i'm worrying about..and that is what the only thing that I'm thinking of...why we have to be worry??why i have to be worry??susah lah kalau tak risau..there is a thing mesti akan buat aku risau....mesti ada lah...hmm sometimes tu risau tak tentu pasal thinking like ada saja benda yang tak kena but don't know what it is....mcm slalu org kata tak sedap hati....hati mmg la tak sedap haha..jgn la makan dah tak sdap haih mrepet plak.. hmm Result...result...WHY YOU SHOULD EXIST in my life???haha da nama pon xm mesti la ada result...but thinking bout you make me real letih lah...ntah mcm mana lah result aku nanti.XM ari tu kinda hard....berdoa je lah...ingat TAWAKKAL....

<<<< what I want >>>>

2009-01-01T11:32:00.000-08:00

of NEW YEAR....

Happy New Year people!!!....
HOPE this 2009 will fill with full of happiness and will be a wonderful and prosperous year...
every time when a new year begin....people will make much wishes..tapi kalu nak ikutkan bulan islam dah msuk dah TAHUN BARU..hijrah dari yg x baik ke bnda yang baik...yeah surely they will make an improvement in their life...and so do i...will they manage to catch their dreams??? Wallahualam..only Allah knows..and if they really work on their wishes of course they will achieve it WITH successful.They will flying with colours...colouring their future with the brightest. INSYAALLAH ........OK ok OK that is THEM...what about me...apa aku nak untuk new year neh...haha so many thing i want...I wish I will success in this year...haha stiap thun mcm neh azam tapi x da lah success mna pon hahhaa that's me....but this time mmg ak nak work hard tpi hmmm x da tpi tpi...try try try....ok..ya lah everytime ak nak wat yg terbaik slalu x jd...tpi as what my mum said "USAHA tu penting then tawakkal banyak2...ALLAH tu ada jgn lupa...kalu dah usaha InsyaALLAH".....thanks mama.... one thing yg paling penting in my life is doa mama ngan abah...hmm 2009 DAH MASOK 20 thun aku neh...tua dah haha bkn budak budak ag dah....hmm ha..... the BIG BIG big BIG problem in myself is lack of confident....yg tu mmg dri skolah lagi....dah ramai kwn ak advice to put more and more but some said more extra confident in myself...this remind me to my friends especially my schoolmates they always ask me to be more confident...thanks FRIENDS i won't forget it...NERVOUS that is another one thing the weak of me....tambah plak in front public lagi lah...hahaha imagine la if I've got presentation or what which is need to talk in front public how???? come on u can change yourself...yeah I'll try..actually i have too many to change...much more weak of me actually....I think i don't need to be perfect but slowly simply walk in my life and keep on learning to be better and more more better...skit skit lah...mnusia pon start from crawling tak kan aku trus nak berlari...how can i???mmg x boleh...jdi slow slow lah tpi jgn slow mcm siput plak..huhu.....kalu da 20 mmg slalu org tnya pasal LOVE...Love is a gift and cannot be earned. It can only be given.....SOMEDAY it will comes..hmmm bukan x da prasaan tapi sebetulnya ak tak trasa sangat nak berCOUPLE neh...4 me kawan tu is more fun than couple...tapi kna tgk lah kalu dah takdir tu what can i say....x leh lah nak ckap bsar sgt....apa pon batas suma tu kna jaga...ada limit gak..hmmm so sleepy ready...apa lah aku mrepet neh hahaha...just type what my hand want to type....ikut arahan otak n akal....hahaha

“Yesterday is not ours to recover, but tomorrow is ours to win or to lose.”

benda kcik ja....

2008-12-28T18:15:00.000-08:00

last night i was headed and i slept early but then i woke up on that night...then still headed and i can't sleep anymore....stay l8 at night and after subuh then only i slept....as usual if can't sleep yea on9 tu ja keja....tau la kan if on that time i just slept just imagine how sleepy i was.. actually that was normal thing 4 me...hmm but awal pgi ni dah jadi bnda x best plus dgn kpala yg sakit...actually it just simple little thing but it was kinda hurt..pgi tdi my sis nak peergi kerja..yeah now she bru start kerja...OK that fine..but then she woke up late and woke me up and asked me to iron her blouse and her bla bla....yeah as what i said i was really sleepy i just mamai on that time..haha u guess what???i kept on sleep and yeah i know dia mmg bengang...but how come she doesn't know me well... i was really headed.. lgsung x sedar tertido blik then she bla bla bebel and said this and that and till i woke up..yeah lah terjaga wonder who lah dok bising bising.....she thought that i just slept and just simply don't wanna help her...F.Y.I i was truly tak sgaja and I'm REALLY SORRY....but the think that made me hurt was U just simply said that i'm saja ja nak wat u cam tuh....seriously lah i really x sedar that i was slept back after u woke me up...FINE if u just wanna thought that yeah mmg ak neh jahat kan...x ska tolong...n mmg saja.i'm bad and u're an angel ...fine just thought as what u want..k..but tolonglah dah besq x kan x leh pikir kot org dah sorry still nak babel pastu marah2...i know lah u're my sis and hv to respect you but i had told u yg i was mmg x sgaja bukan saja wat2 but did not listen to me and it kinda hurt...i'm like you jgak...ada prasaan...just imagine if u were in my place n sure akan jdi bnda yg sama right....

2008-12-27T10:12:00.000-08:00

holiday...
hmm..when i was extremely busy i was waiting for the holiday......
when it was holiday i felt damn bored..apa nak nuat neh...hmmm yeah lama x update blog neh kan..hmmm honestly mmg really don't know what to type.. nothing interesting actually...and no exciting moment la....hmmm bosan everyday i did the same thing and feel so huh...hmm *sigh* just 1 week left...omg huh that is kinda short time 4 me....hmm i'll start my new sem next year and now just a few days b4 2009...waiting to a new year..a year that i should put all my concentrate in study...when i think about a new sem surely I've to think about what I'm going to achieve 4 my past sem result...ouchh..it's really makes me fright...really don't want to repeat on any paper that i sat..ohoooo....next year I'm going on 20..no teen anymore dah tua...izzzit?? hmm I'm going older and older...more mature?? really??huh it's like running to fast....moving forward..haha but i won't know what will going to happen next...even in the next minute...next day...next month....next year....next 10 years..wowwww.....still alive??no one will know what will happen right..??hope there is a bright future FULL OF HAPPINESS for me,,and so to my friends...INSYAALLAH....

DUNIA MEREKA...their world...world of MEREKA

2008-12-12T09:47:00.000-08:00

blog BLOGblogBLOG

Lately, so much blogs that i had read.... wooo they wrote everything...i was enjoy reading until i feel like aku di dunia mereka.oh..banyaknya idea diorang neh...Dulu ada one of my BESTFRIEND asked me to creat a blog but then i FELT so lazy la nak wat suma neh bcoz the truly u guys should know is.. that I'm not not good in writing..no idea what to write yeah that was years ago... should i tell everyone what happened in my life in this blog...oohhooo do people interested to read and do they care??? If they do.. wow!!that is pretty good and I'm so glad....mesti kalau 3 thun dulu aku create blog sure here will be too much post kan...and now when i read other blog mcm terbuka plak pintu hati..huhu nak wat blog haha...cam poyos la plak aku neh...oh friend at last aku wat jgak satu...biar lah aku nak mrepek mrepek kat sini...and biarlah apa orang nak kata and i think i really don't mind...

....woohoo..warna warni..

feeling so down

2008-12-09T00:42:00.000-08:00

when i feel so DOWN

have u ever feel so down....feel that everyone are so far from you.....
- I just keep my mouth shut....like I'm not in the place that i am....
-no one know that I'm so down...because they should not know that..
-I'm just keep it all deep inside and try to make a better in a next day...BUT then.....will tomorrow will be mine??